A Madman's Miscellany
A Madman's Miscellany
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she was a pure soul with a bitch mouth

told she was 35 at 13, pure land

engineer in her ways and her mind

she was a greek schizophrenic

missing part of her button nose

that she left outside the closet door

where the monster was the neighbour

she was a skinhead's dog

if charles manson was a real woman

blown on my pink blow mind

she was an alcoholic from north india

bundy bisexual and a thing for legs

she was at the apple core of herself

a cottonmouth sister, baby, a victim

born and bred on ash and fantasy

and i'll always blame her dad

she was the one above cloud nine in time

a real woman in the single mind

of mine and i was hers

a complex in the housing complex

she wore powder brown like the rainbow

and ran a mile in my shoes

as i crawled in her shadow

she was a rebel rebel revel

in my madness i found glass and glad lead

what a wonderful world


there is something surgical

liturgical about how you

open up like an undressed wound

bleed for me baby, bleed on me

it's weight off your back and

a monkey on mine my heroine

the monkey paw curls one

as i think of true love

and disney and dollhouse blues

and whites and pinks, smoke it

cool it, eat it. my word!

my words are salad and my sky

has no stars but you the lune moon


Out of tune, fair de lune

my luck is a holey bucket

and yours a handful of fishnets

the sea is silver and the world is green

and the media man is lantern light

let's sin as saint's do

as the sun rises over the hill

on top of the girl world wild

bare your fangs and learn of cobalt

this is the way that my way goes


there were 1,4, 7 magpies that day

where I had a bloodstream

and teeth like stonehenge

it's all broken spoken in stones

and hands that look like nightsticks

at around 10am in blood red yellows

yellow belly black out fast and bulbous

nothing but a nightmare; falling faster

tortoise and the hare of my chinny chin chin

i want take this slow and steady

anal cunt by the ticking of a real clock

in a word it is TRUE

tic tic and laugh. why doth the baby cry?

we all crawled in the morning sun

and bawled by the time it shone


Stoker's squaw in metal and leather

dead and gone, i'll never forget her

bagge cats bring emotional baggage

antimanic anti all the rage engage

no go zone

love is nothing

in the face of an empty wallet

and global geopolitic tick tick

nuclear radical magical cold

to the touch i flinch

johhny kidd and the pirates

delusion of an illusion

explosion of colour twice


I've had a blue moon month by midday

for a month or two by now i swear

i've lived it by a homemade bible

in the shape of a calendar

everyday an autobiography in thirds

that refuses to kill its darlings

busy as a bee and mad as a hatter

what a life! i expect nothing less

it's only a weekly monthly

yearly nearly there give an inch

fear me fear me, give or take

you don't know nothing

and you don't know me


ok, who was the man in the reflection with the lipstick

sick in the arms of a lover

time time time time time again time time time

Hey Baby, your love is edible

The road to hell is paved with tlc

Manic Depression searching my soul

HOME HOME HOME ALONE ALONE ALONE

you and I

sexual identity


new life

sleepless minddeath

home warzone home

first time for everything

bipolar in the friendgroup

the virgin with more pills than life itself

first kiss by a bbq under a hardware store

black words

re: are? who

down the throat

roomates and the mosquito

the fly with a buzz in the

the hunter hunted cuntted

birds of a feather

anxiety

outside the minimental


I have the craving for a bad day in december

2 years ago. 2 years already

bags under the eyeliner under the eyes

bleeding from the jugular vein

occulsion delusion

i have seen the dead and lived the life

of a story afraid of dead darlings, my dear

maybe i just hold grudges

m and the a and the d

the crabs in the bucket of a brain

no one hates the mad like the

ones who could be just as sick as them

just a bridge from badlands to worse

then as i leave the noise of a flight of fancy

my teeth sunk deep into laughter and suicide

i realise why no girls leave the houses

past the 10th hour in the city no more

in the dark i wish i was in the nest

i made in your hair on the stain sheets

where i guessed it was true

(true love? i think of friends

and if i had them at all)

that you really do take on

the dreams of the ones who

you slept with.


guess and gander the game of the grey

teeth as long as the shadows of the evening sun

yesterday was a aphrodisiac, get back

gimme shelter in the nest in your hair

don't play games with me unless you wanna lose

the gods are green and the air is cold

cities are a noise pollutant and you're a good lover

friends, just friends

No obligation rambling man, take a chance

It's on me, on the house, on the train tracks

Does that track with you?


The night is like fairyland

The eire fey unfair and fucked

Guy Fawkes is dead in the stale air

And the french rings like a cracked bell

It’s bastille again in the brain built

On rickety persnickety bleeding hearts

And every ounce of creativity

Has been leeched from the gutters

Where the dead sleep like dogs lie

And can be found in bags of IV fluid

Jacked into the arms and hands over hearts

That show that love is a relative thing

These are flittering butterflies

In a succulent garden by the train tracks

Spider webbed and squealing like hogs

Where the clozapine kicks in

A family comes to break the news

And break the dawn of a day

That feels like a dead darling lifetime


I fear the gang green gills

Staples and chains on the bed

Let me play my theme song

Memories taste of grapes and yeast

The beast of the mane nocte

I had all my thoughts in a row

Row row row your bot, fight the power

Outage in-age ages outta time

Say what? The deperson, stroke and waters

Wearing brown-grey suits and a smile crack a country

The disappearer and dissenter and the stalinist

The politician comes to the door

And cried quetiapine tears

Stimulation nation, what’s up doc?


ECT, etcetera, techie kid

A laptop is a hippodrome

And i am byzantine

Birmingham knock knocking

Like the ss with snake tongues

And hands like Midas, shitscum king

Oh the superhumanity i have lived

And died, loved and lost

A tipsy line cook

And a junkie spunky

With sultanas on the bed

I’m in dire straits in the creekbed

Dry as dirt and knee deep in shit

I see clearly now

The thing of the nightmare

daymare, ride at dawn

Dr dr, gimme the news

Read all about it extra

Chilli and jalapenos

Coughing on the train to the river


Kick the sun and let me down

Write my name on the fencepost

A smile like a garden hose

And a clock like a prison bar

Tick tock watching watchmen

Hail the outrage sugars

Adderall and tinned corn

Syrupy were the voices

Conscious as a fly on the wall

Don’t rush to crush

Look before you leap

Take my loving slow

Pride before the fall


1:1 Thought disorder

And All the baby’s bunting

Cuntling shit off a duck’s back

Get back on the wagon and the high horse

Et tu brute ain’t it true, ain’t it a shame

House to a home to a newborn bitch

On the altar where the fish sleep

TDS for nausea, palpate for a mate

Expensive her-bell tease stript bare bones

You can see mine through the skin

And taste just what i’m dreaming of

All the cafes are an her-me aphrodisiac

To the symphony of a cough laugh cough

Disgrace, my face is a savings account

Neighbours learn chinese, turning japanese

Bahaii bahrain bye bye baby


Schazi on a chickenshit spell

Out on break and dog whistle

I take on some patient dreams

And dismantle them by the door

Gotta bounce, security rebel yell

Billy Joel marked down looks in bug eyes

Lief Erikson and magic they said

He said she said.say what?

Drinking hand sanitiser, advertiser

Just such just things my dear

Needle and rubbing alcohol and bomb threat

Don’t touch me, don’t hurt me


Comic confetti in mine and red wine in yours

I’m yours for a week wage rage and rage

Wage war in my head, noise noise noise

Over the abominable spirit of toxins

Found in the form of the new dawn

I look like gg jesus

With the faux fuck blood

Melena and the latest update

Over long blacks and halloween

The psychiatrist speaking 3 tongues

Travel time, estradiol is a piano chord

Not me, it’s the makeup drinking

Deep the blood of innocents


What a war water why why why

Doth the baby cry for Macbeth

I heard he was not a man

But just the shape of what he lost

One two one two, my heart beats new

Something something melody, die rolled twice

On ice, on the goal and bad bad time

The devil’s trill trillion love triangles

Triples, death is sexed up randy dandy

On a pale horse, lead a horse to medicine

A spring chicken in a sprung trap


I have to leave in the middle of the night

Trespassing on your love

Supplicating to your hating

Please don’t, just love me like you do

I fought the law and it bit the hand

That feeds the open maw of cheap housing

Student of life, hard knocks til we break

Trust your mechanic and listen to doctor bliss

Deal the cards like the nurse is a cheat

And double blind the windows, make me scream

Dog bitten rapid rabid manic panic

The disorient express to the western world

Morals in the corals of the medical seas


I’m over time. 10 hours now. 4 way street.

Baby baby blues boxcut flat stanley slut

Barrum barrum the ents march by moonlight

Gunsmoke midnight midges bit the brain

Barruum Barruum broomstick boomstick

Blood in the booze and vice in the versa

My first is vicelike dragging the corpse

Thru the doors of all that I am

Out of the streetcar greater desire

And a knifelike cellophane night

The emotional baggage was pharmaceutical

And all I said was that it was a rusty razor

Medical unconfident let me in into the wound


Microwave meals a nap in a semaphore gutter

I never fear, but i shake like a leaf

The trees are papparazzi

And the french come like 76

Busy as a bee and mad as a hatter

I’m not a maniac and you’re not evil

I shot the shit with over a night creche

With a bukowski-tolkien dwarf

The blues of a real gone mind weekly

And the hairs of the chinny chin chin

Let me in, it’s cold out in here

The heart is hot in demand

And hot on my cracked hells


Black Cadilliac pretty in pink

Yellow corvette adderrall house home

The riders on the storm, quadrophillia

Drug love the dead and lovely dying

She has funny cars, taxi taxi

No-one walks alone near here

Huddled in the bones of a skinny old tree

Under the highway liquor slicked

Back to hell through the valley of nightlife

That goodnight like a virgin

Strange stranger strangest

How much can you take


SNAP, watta weight wait for the time

Watching in the trees

DV DVT and the world

Goes round the bend

Do what? Do what you’re told

It’s now or it’s involuntary, my ED dear

Now or never, one of these

Dreams where every man and his dog

And shit they never left behind

Shows up asking in tongues

I love this, I love the brand new kick

Felll off the bed and into the wilds

Out the window into the cars


It’s kuru falling

Like snow through

The cracks I see rainy skin

The world breathes heavy with me

I am but human meat

Myocyte paranoia

Papparazzi people person

Pepperoni next door

I love your rock and roll cock

Forever! STEMI madame

Adam and eve and gentle ribbing

The rise and fall of your chest

Looks like a slave ship upturned

On waves of green and gold


The heart of the heat

Can’t handle it? Stay outta the kitchen

Stay outta the matters, rathers

Molten tears and a high fever

Anxiety, depression, how many wounds, was it?

Words all pretty in the rows and vows

Daydream believer, I’ll just what you way

Daydream, believer, querying psychosis

Daydremt til the sun left the sky

And I’m never coming home


A girl made of birds and bees

Blossoms and blooms, broomsticks to bleed

She knew what was on the factory line

Halbermensch with Hollywood tears: It’s showbiz!

Theactiricality sexuality in suicide

.444 free fuck sock on the door in my head

Mind palace met the Bolsheviks

Oh my God. It was the year of the dragon

Or the rat, manic depression in the west

Bipolar in the eat. Names named names

A snake in the grass! Poison bitch

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